Stalker
I am a stalker, not in a freaky way like most people think about that word, more like a silent figure in the shadow that observe but rarely interfere. I know that still doesn't sound right, but in some way, that's a part of who I am. Someone who gathers information but rarely uses that information against other people. Someone who’s need to know is simply that, the need to know and rarely anything more. Of course I am not actually a stalker, I don't follow people around at night, park in front of their house and peek into their windows and I have no desire to do anything like that.
I know, this is freaking you out, trust me, this is freaking me out as I am typing this, it makes me feel like I am some sick psycho who spends the nights in front of my PC surfing thru people's blogs. Well, that's kinda of what I do, but isn't that what things like blogs and friendsters are for? It satisfies the need for people to know and more importantly, the need for people to be watched. Let's face it, we all want to be popular, we all want to be the center of attention, but not all of us have the charisma to be the center of the attention in real life, or have enough courage to let people know that you care about them.
But at the end, the odds are, it doesn't matter, people don't care if you care about them, and people don't care about you. That's why people stalk, there is no way to be rejected, and that's why people put themselves out there, because they tell themselves that people are (or may be) paying attention to them. It's sad if you think about it.. ..

