The storm within.. ..

I think my emotion is spinning out of control, nothing like last weekend has ever happened to me before. Was it because of her? or it was something else? Am I thinking too highly of myself? or I am heading down the path I have dreaded for so long? Am I thinking far far far too much for a weekend fling or this is just a way to escape my problems? Did she really like me or it was just alcohol induced 'over-friendliness'? Am I really the person I think I am, or I am just like everyone else?

The problem I have is that I can not overwrite my desire with my will, I don't have enough internal strength to do the right thing. I should be able to seperate what I want from what I need to do, but sometime it's just difficult to do.

Maybe she was right, just let it be, when I feel like to mourn, mourn, when I feel okay, feel okay.. ..

I really like her, and I hope she feels the same way.